Tattoos I really wanted and decided against

So, it takes me months to decide on a tattoo and sometimes even months more before I come up with an actual design and love it and then want it. So while I have talked about MANY MANY MANY tattoos that I would love to get, I only have the 3 so far. So lets dive into this world of crazy young tattoo ideas that I wanted and decided (thankfully for some) against.

2879d72e143b46e877a69bfe142f2fa21.) Deathly Hallows symbol: So I went through a huge Harry Potter fan phase, as in I NEEDED a Harry Potter tattoo and me and my friend seriously discussed getting the deathly hallows symbol as matching tattoos. After some time though, while I realized I love Harry Potter I realized I didn’t want it on my body permanently and it was just too common to have it be an original tattoo because so many people get it. This was when I realized I only wanted something with a huge meaning on my by body and I told my friend this regrettably but I still stand by my decision.

8e76fe57c40b21e75db3d471ac89dbf62.) Hogwarts outline: This is the same as the deathly hallows but with the skyline of Hogwarts. Same rules apply, I just didn’t want that permanently. I really love the idea and design but I can’t commit to it. While I do still really want this one I have decided to retire ever seriously considering it. It’s just not worth it. It doesn’t have a deep enough meaning.

5394bf048c9fd2afae4327a1a6b544903.) Captian America shield: I have a huge geek streak, clearly. But at some point I sifted through all Captain America tattoos ideas on Pinterest seriously considering getting something like that immortalized on my body. And as much as I wanted it, I could not find inspiration for it and come up with a design I really loved. So I gave up on it, because if I don’t love it then I won’t get it.

4.) Iron spider man suit profile(this is the only design that I had designed for me after inspiration from another piece of artwork): This is one of the ones that I got farthest in getting. My husband helps me to design the tattoos that I want to get and he spent a long time piecing this one together. We took inspiration from a drawing we found on pinterest and made it to look like the iron spider-man suit. Miles shared a sketch with youI really loved this design and was super interested in getting it. But I had some doubts and my husband didn’t really like the tattoo a whole lot. While I firmly believe that our choices are our own, I respect my husband and I still wasn’t 100% sold one this idea for a tattoo. It just didn’t have enough meaning for me and to be quite honest I didn’t like it fully colored in, I would prefer it in a water color style and that style has a lot of issues in itself anyways.

2590c59ab02bf0b177c49055fa346c1e5.) Ravenclaw bird: I found a design that I loved on Pinterest, way back in college. This was back when I just really wanted a tattoo and loved the idea so I spent all my time looking up tattoos that I wanted. While this design was beautiful and could be re-worked to fit me and my personal style, I just lost my passion for having it. While I would still love a Ravenclaw tattoo (maybe something a little more discreet though like just the eagle and nothing that can really tie Harry Potter into it) I had wanted that one on my back and the tattoo that I am going to get next has kicked that one to the curb as far as placement. More to come on the next tattoo.

ee620816a4ce968f5fea7902421adf4e6.) Eye of Agamotto: In my phase of wanting a geek tattoo (thanks marvel for this mass release of movies that fueled my passion) this one popped up. While I may not have seriously considered getting this as much as the others, it was something that for a short time I really did want. The design was cool, and with the right concept and skill (plus style) this could really turn out to be amazing.
02d1ba463054f3f01020450d977bfc357.) A little camera: I have always loved those little line work camera tattoos, usually something that that is all connected like those shapes you make without lifting the pencil. As a photographer, this is something super meaningful to me. However, I decided to get other tattoos instead, and while I might go back to this one later on I have just put this on hold for a little while. I need to find a design that is uniquely me and means a lot to me vs finding something online. I also don’t believe in just coping a design from Pinterest out right, I just use my Pinterest tattoo board as inspiration and design stuff off of that.

40bd6092ac63494da6ba8a3de6a1aa2c8.) Evenstar: Calling all Lord of the Rings fans!! This was like the first one I really got attached to and hardcore wanted. I love Lord of the Rings and thought that this would be a subtle way to commemorate it. I thought about getting this one on my wrist but at the time I was in college and this was just wishful thinking. I don’t hate this but now that I am older I will reconsider making it permanent.

0c45621fc5b48188072c9f771058f0d19.) Game of thrones dragon: After game of thrones came out I wanted that typical Targaryen dragon. I still love the idea but I realized that this tattoo would be a little bit more difficult. The color ones wouldn’t last, but the black ones might be too bold. And then there is no way to get this as a small tattoo because the detail is too great. It’s a huge commitment and while a dragon would be cool it just doesn’t mean enough to me to get it.

93a9ddf85527a060cff587a76368b30110) JSS: After watching the Walking Dead episode where Carls girlfriend gives him the note JSS which we later learn means Just Survive Somehow. This really resonated with me because as someone who struggled with depression for many years it was a nice reminder that even though things are rock bottom we survive. I was apprehensive to get this because it’s just out there as far as tattoos and I would get it on my wrist so a lot of people would be talking. This is one that actually means a lot to me, and while The Walking Dead really sucks now this was a really cool part of the show and a really good reminder. This is probably the only tattoo on this list that I will eventually get though, but for now it’s on hold.

ac28fb4187171de72903a241c62a853711.) Cross: For the longest time I wanted a cross, with a bible verse that meant a lot. I simply could not find (or make) a design that I even liked so I just gave up on this one. Maybe at a later date I will find something but for now I have other tattoos that mean just as much to me and even though I am a tattooed christian I don’t HAVE to have a cross, there are other symbolism out there.

1a23f00e15f61eb6ad6c68f42b7cd04112.) Turtle: I love turtles. They are the greatest animal ever. And for the longest time I wanted a tattoo to immortalize that love. But again, I couldn’t come up with something that I love. And after years of getting NOTHING but turtle stuff (as well as TMNT stuff-because I’m 12 not 24 apparently) I got a little tired of all of that. Sure I still gasp and freak out when I see a turtle but I don’t want to carry on the obsession any longer.

I hadn’t realized how many there were until I listed them. Dang, I really love tattoos and am slightly obsessed. However, I take a certain amount of caution with tattoos because they are permanent. I never want to pay for laser or try cover ups so I want the designs I pick to be meaningful and really good. I may be over cautious, but I feel like for me personally I need to be. Otherwise I would be walking around with Captain Americas shield on my chest or something.


All images used to portray tattoos are inspiration and not a final design (except for Iron Spidey) for what I was wanting. Tattoo copying is dishonest when it comes to original designs (not for things like deathly hallows, infinity symbols etc that are already designed and mass produced) so just know that if I had gotten these I would have made them my own. 


My First Time blog tag

I don’t think I have ever done a tag on this blog, but I saw this on Jenny’s blog Jenny in Neverland and I just had to try it myself. this seems likes a fun way to tell people a little bit more about me. I’m just going to have fun with this post and answer to the best of my abilities, some may be silly and some may be serious. I encourage everyone to try this tag out as well, tag me in it I would love to see your answers. Also make sure to check out Jenny’s post, the entire inspiration for me doing this blog post.

  1. First app you check when you wake up in the morning?  It really just depends on the day, usually facebook or twitter though. Sometimes I just go with whatever app I was posting on last so I can catch up on notifications.
  2. First broken bone?I have never broken a bone, so lets keep it that way. Though with yoga and standing on my head, I might have one coming soon. (Hopefully never)
  3. 1506585_10201606659873340_830321865_nFirst foreign country you ever visited?In college I went to Israel, we stayed in Bethlehem and learned about the effect of the conflict in the area. We also got to see all of the classic sites with some shopping in old Jerusalem as well. Definitely worth a trip there just to see all the sites.
  4. My first make-up item?Does nail polish count? I remember having some dollar store nail polish specifically for kids when I was about 5. It peeled right off as soon as it dried but I loved it.
  5. My first ever tape or CD?Pretty sure I got the Narnia soundtrack, or some top music hits. One of those. I wasn’t super into CD’s or my own music until I got an IPOD.
  6. My first car?10704076_10202938198640977_750207243588231594_nPrepare yourselves for this. I had a pink PT Cruiser, I got it from my grandma who was obsessed with pink and custom painted her car. It even had bubbles, like a rolling bar of soap. It was a good car though.
  7. My first Celebrity crush?Whoever played Oliver Wood in Harry Potter- OH BOY he was my favorite. To this day I think he is the cutest actor (okay Draco shaped up quite a bit in the last movies as well) I had good taste as a kid.
  8. My first cooking experience?Me and my sister would take the sauce mix from ramen and try to spice it up. It did not taste good, I have since improved my skills.
  9. My first ever boyfriend/girlfriend?There was this kid that started going to our church, I think I was a freshman, we never actually went out but I would borrow my friends phone and text him ALL the time. I think it lasted like a month tops in which he moved, found another girl and later in life settled down with a family.
  10. My first ever mobile phone?s-l225I had this little slider phone from Virgin Mobile my brother got me for Christmas. I had to buy those phone cards and everything and eventually the screen went nuts from too much sliding.
  11. My first fear?Dying, as a kid it seemed like such a huge problem and that as soon as I grew up I would kick the bucket. While dying still doesn’t seem super fun I realize I have so much life to live.
  12. My first internet activity?Neopets, I played games for hours trying to save up for new pets and cute clothes for them.
  13. My first job?I worked as a camp counselor for a summer, as a junior counselor so I would help the main counselor. It was a great experience and great summer. Eventually I moved to childcare, and now Yoga.
  14. My first language?English, I failed at Spanish, and then was almost fluent in German. But English is it for now. I want to learn more eventually.
  15. First musical instrument?1936585_1116193630063_4307061_n.jpgTrumpet. In 6th grade it was pick an instrument or do choir. I hated singing so I played trumpet all through middle school and high school. I hated it.
  16. My first pet?We had this evil cat that only loved my mom and spent time terrorizing all the kids. We all hated that evil cat.
  17. My first piercing and when did I get it?I had my ears done as a baby, I believe I was a month old. It was a cultural thing we do in my family and I love that I had them done my entire life. I know this is a tricky topic, but what’s done is done and I am happy it was done.
  18. My first tattoo?I was 19 in Chicago and I got AGAPE in an Ichthys. You can read the full story in my first tattoo blog.
  19. My first soft toy?A little stuffed Platypus, I loved it so much. However my brothers tossed it around, chucked it in a lamp and told no one. So when my mom turned the lamp on it burned and she didn’t find it until it started to burn up and make a nasty smell.
  20. My first thought today?SHUT THE ALARM OFF!! I really like my sleep.
  21. My first time on a ship?I haven’t been on a ship but I have been canoeing and kayaking and when I was a teen we took a boat out on our local lake.
  22. The first book I remember reading?I have been reading for as long as I can remember. My mom read us Little house on the Prairie, I would read various picture books as a child and Harry Potter is the first big book I remember reading. Or the American Diary series. I can’t remember which came first.
  23. The first concert I ever attended?I saw Family Force 5 when we went to DC as part of a Christian conference.
  24. The first film I remember seeing?Star Wars the Phantom Menace. I was so young I couldn’t even read the scrolling titles (I think because it was too fast) I loved it at the time but I realized later that it was kind of crap.
  25. The first person I talked to today?My husband, saying goodbye for work.
  26. The first text I sent today?To my husband lol, he always texts me when he gets to work
  27. The first thing I do every morning?Watch a youtube video just to wake myself up a little more.
  28. The first thing I do when I get home?Grab a snack, I’m usually coming home from a class and haven’t eaten yet.
  29. The first time you ever got drunk?Lol do I even dare with this? I was in college with friends and I had mikes lemonade. Pretty sure I got tipsy off that one drink because I was such a lightweight. I don’t enjoy drinking too much though just the occasional glass of wine.

This was super fun to do, and I think I might do more of these so you guys can get to know me better. Share your similar tags with me as well, I would love to see everyone else’s answers. This is just a fun blog post to do.



Accepting the Silence in a yoga practice

I already touched on how beneficial your Savasana is in practice, but what about those awkward silences during practice as well? You know, the ones you get when you hold a pose or when you begin to wind down the practice? Once the teacher has given all cues, maybe a couple jokes and has successfully guided the students into the pose that now needs to be held for a few breaths, even up to a minute. Now you’re sitting in your runners lunge, maybe even all the way down in lizard pose and your teacher has stopped giving any cues and has seemed to have completely forgotten about you. While you should only do what is comfortable in your body-and moving out of discomfort is definitely a good thing-your yoga instructor has most certainly not forgotten about you. And while the silence seems super awkward to you and you really don’t want to sit there for 3-6 breathes stretching out your hips in runners lunge, there is a purpose and it’s not just to make you sit there.

And I 100% guarantee you that your yoga instructor feels a teensy but awkward during the silence as well. Especially when it starts getting to those quiet down poses at the end of practice. We have spent the whole practice talking and guiding, making sure that we give the perfect amount of time for each posture and making sure each side is even. Suddenly we are supposed to sit quietly for seconds, even minutes as the class winds down and begins Savasana. We sit there helping people wind down, just waiting for them to be done. Often times for me I feel like something needs to be said, or it’s just too long of a time to be in a pose or maybe I wasn’t even enough with each side. But the silence is a key part of yoga, and often times it’s too rushed.

Silence, especially at the end of practice, is a wonderful way to wind down. Sure, guide the pose maybe add some flowing movement in but do so gently and once you say what needs said let the silence flow in. Once we begin to embrace the silence and learn to bring the silence into our own minds we can really begin to cool down and find some peace. Often times our minds are going a mile a minute during practice, but if we can embrace the silence and clear our minds we can begin to come to a more intense and profound practice.

I see so many people thinking that yoga is just the postures. Sure breathing is involved, but a lot of people just see those two aspects of yoga. They fail to see how much more yoga is.

For me yoga is a space I can go to on my mat, a space to clear my head and get into the zone and forget every other worry on in my life. This is how I am able to teach even as a social recluse. Once I start I am in the zone and I forget everything else. This is why instructors will sometimes encourage the sighs and long releases of breath. Yoga is the release and when you really get into it you begin to sigh out everything bothering you with life. This is also why teachers being with a simple pose, asking students to focus on breathing or clearing their mind.

When we tie in the silence with our breathing and holding of  posture we begin to come to this place on our mats where we feel safe and in control. We feel free, at peace and wonderful all at the same time. And once we come to the silence we can clear our minds and just enjoy the clear minded freedom, preparing ourselves for the rest of the day off of our mats.

So next time your holding your pigeon pose, or a supine twist, and you feel your mind wandering to the “is the DONE yet??” mindset take a deep breath and clear your mind and let everything fade away. Welcome in the silence and just take the time to sit with yourself, because when else are we going to take the time to sit in silence during our day? We need this time for ourselves and welcoming in the silence is one of the best things that you can do for you and your practice.

Everything Wrong (and good) with The Kissing Booth

So I feel like at this point we all know the Netflix original The Kissing Booth, and we have all probably watched it. If you haven’t then skip this blog post because it will most definitely contain spoilers. I watched this one on a whim and I actually ended up really enjoying it. 04-the-kissing-booth.w710.h473A couple of drinks also helped (completely kidding! I think…) but it was not that bad of a movie. Stupid? Yeah. Cheesy teen flick? Yeah. Not even set on an edge of reality? Absolutely, but still it’s not that bad. Like a feel good, guilty pleasure kind of movie. But there were still some things wrong with the movie, and while my opinion may not be the opinions of the mass population there are still issues with the movie. Just remember that this is entirely my opinion, it may be different from yours and that’s okay. I would love to hear everyone else’s thoughts on what they liked/hated about the movie just keep it nice and don’t degrade someone for thinking differently and keep your opinion nice and respectful.

Movie plot: 

The kissing booth follows Lee and Elle who have been best friends since the day they were born. They share a birthday, they share families and they share just about everything else. They even have rules of friendship, some which are silly and some a little more serious-like family members are off limits which is a way to say Lee’s older brother Noah is a huge NO. But Elle secretly harbors a huge crush on Noah. So when Lee and Elle have to pitch a carnival booth idea they decide on a kissing booth, Elle and Noah end up kissing at the booth and begin their rocky (and secret) relationship. Hiding it from everyone, even Lee. 

So already the movie starts out with basic, but still oddly intriguing, plot points. It’s the type of girly movie that is so basic that everyone watches it just to see it. But there were still some points that I disliked about the movie, or thought were odd. Some points other people pointed out that may have seemed wrong but might not be as bad and honestly just plain stupidity of both sides of the story. So let’s dive in.

  1. the-kissing-boothElle wearing a SUPER short skirt: Okay yeah, this adds to movie drama and all that but honestly Netflix having her rip her pants at school would have gotten the point across of her “glow up” from summer and not made Elle come off as the new school slut. And then a guy comes up and slaps her butt because obviously she asked for it by dressing like that? I wouldn’t be so bitter about that either but he later apologizes to her and she’s like, “yeah okay! Let’s date.” is this girl so desperate for male attention that she accepts the male abuser? So believable-NOT! Insert eye-roll here. Thankfully the movie picked up a little bit after this mishap.
  2. Noah running off all the guys not getting enough good rep: I’m sorry this might be a wildly unpopular opinion but I was not about to complain that Noah Flynn told the Perv master to back of or he’d beat him up. They could of worded it a little bit better than the idiot guy saying “no boobs are worth a black eye.” but how is this even a bad thing. Like I know girls need to date their own guys and make their own mistakes but honestly Noah did her a huge favor. I saw it as Noah being a big brother to her, as someone who grew up with brothers I definitely heard the old “I will beat him up” threats. Yes I realize that this is also super annoying for an older brother to do but still, he helped her out a bit. And he certainly got an earful when she found out so it’s not like he had any sort of control over her life she clearly could stand up for herself. As wrong as Noah may have been it was honestly that stupid “awww” moment when you realized he was acting however selfishly out of love. Of course, he does need to grow up and do it quickly because those quirks become irritating super quick after their initial “awwww” moment.
  3. Lee thinking he could control Elle’s love life: Okay this is what should of gotten the bad rep and honestly I was quite shocked that it didn’t. Lee literally tells Elle that he won’t be friends with her if she dates his brother. Like really? REALLY!? That is so low, and any friend who gives you ultimatum like that is not really your friend. When Elle chewed his butt and told him “you do not get to tell me who to love” I was like YASSS GIRL YASSS because we do not get enough of this in movies and books. I loved how Elle stood up and was like “okay back off you’re being a jerk” because Lee was being the biggest grade A jerk in the entire movie (besides perv guy) and he had NO right to act like that or treat her like that simply because she liked his brother. He is a crap friend and honestly Elle could do better. And can we talk about what a jerk Lee was being once he met a girl too, like he completely ditched Elle and was oblivious to her life because of some girl, AND he took the girl he was seeing to the dance video game that was specifically him and Elle’s thing. I hated Lee, with a burning passion I hated him. He was a huge jerk. And the look on Elle’s face when she saw Lee doing the dance with another girl was just so heartbreaking. Lee is the jerk of the movie and I stand by that 100%

Okay, so I don’t want this post to be all negative at all so I will touch on the points I really liked about the movie because it had some solid moments.

  1. Elle’s massive attitude: I love a strong girl who will stick up for herself. She didn’t start off strong with trying to date perv man. But she ripped Noah a new one, a few times actually and even let Lee have a piece of her mind. So the girl knows (usually) when a guy is a grade A jerk and she is not afraid to let him have it. I applaud her for being able to stick up to both Lee and Noah and let them have a piece of her mind.
  2. Elle losing her virginity: Most teen movies act like this is the highlight of the movie and the biggest most important thing in this girls life, and they act like losing her virginity is life and death and then the girl gets all attached and weepy and acts like an emotional mess. It was a little refreshing that this movie took a different take, because sometimes it’s just not a huge deal. Not every girl is gonna freak out and act like it’s the be all end all. And it was cool how Elle would go in like no big deal buying condoms because honestly some girls are just like that. It happens, and it’s nice to have a different story line vs the typical emotional girl loses virginity. Not every case is the same and it’s nice to see movies branching out.
  3. Noah and Elle saying like vs love: When Noah and Elle got together they were all like “I like you” and I literally screamed YES when this happened. SO many teen movies focus on the true love at first sight trope and my goodness it was nice to see a couple of teens be like “I like you, let’s see where this goes” because too many movies focus on emotional girls acting crazy for love. Yeah sure eventually they said it but only after they had been together all year and only when they were sure. And even then, Noah went to college and Elle ends the movie with “I don’t know what’s going to happen but let’s just live life and see” type quote and it was refreshing. They realize that this is young love and they realize it may or may not last. Most movies don’t do that and it’s important to focus on that because a lot of first loves don’t end up lasting and that’s okay. It should be more common in movies that this happens in movies because true love is a false picture painted by media that over glorifies having love in high school. It can happen and last, sure, but usually first loves are just that. First loves.

What did you guys think of the movie? I would rate this movie 3/5 stars. It was good, super cheesy but not a bad watch. I might go back again and rewatch when I am feeling a chick flick type of movie night. It wasn’t the greatest though, and I would definitely change some plot points if I was in charge. But all in all, I don’t regret watching it. I know many people hated it simply because they felt Noah was too controlling, but I didn’t get that vibe really after his initial story line of telling guys to back off. Maybe if he had just told that one guy and not all the guys it would be more believable especially since Elle was made to be a dorky kid until she blossomed. Either way, not too terrible I’d say definitely a guilty pleasure movie. Comment your thoughts and opinions on below I would love to hear them.

My tattoo experience Part 1: My first tattoo

So I have 3 tattoos, done by 3 different shops. And while I love each one, I do have thoughts and feelings on each experience and things I have learned along the way through my tattoo journey. I am not claiming to be an expert and I still have A LOT to learn in the ways of tattoos, but I have learned quite a bit and wanted to share my tips and experiences from the tattoos that I do have. I want to share the ups and downs, dislikes and likes, and mistakes I have made in getting tattoos. This will be a 3 part blog post as there is a lot to talk about with each shop and tattoo that I visited/have. This will be a fairly long blog post as well, I have a lot say about my first tattoo.

My first tattoo:

IMG_5719My first tattoo is one I love a lot but also one that I am not as found of. I was 19 when I got this one and quite honestly just wanting a tattoo in general. While I did think a lot about what I wanted, I feel like if I had waited a little longer I would of learned more and came to a more decisive decision on what I wanted and not just gotten something for the sake of having a tattoo.

First off, I was living in Chicago at the time when I did get this tattoo so I had pretty good options for getting tattoos. But me being me, and being young and naive I went and walked into tattoo shops, showed them my design and asked how much. There will be more on the design later. This in itself is not a bad thing, especially since I could give the shops a solid design and how large I was wanting it and the placement(I knew right away I wanted this on my hip, bold placement for a first tattoo). But I have since learned it can be a little rude to basically tattoo hop and find the cheapest price. Plus you might now always want the cheapest anyways. The piece was small enough and simple enough that it qualified for the base price. So I basically just walked into tattoo shops and went off price and how fast they were able to fit me in. I have since learned, contacting before hand is probably best, and while I didn’t just hear the minimum  price and go “no thanks” and leave I could of had a little more tact in the ways of walk in tattoos. I was also with a friend who had several tattoos and was experienced in the ways of getting tattoos so I think that helped me to be a little less rude than some people are in the situation of tattoo shop hopping. This isn’t to say that you CAN’T walk in and ask the questions that you want and get what you need. You should ask questions and get exactly what you want in the way of permeant body art, but I led the shop owners to believe I would be back but instead found a place that was cheaper and cancelled on them when they did call and say they now had time for me. When getting tattoos learn to have some patience, and also go with the person with the best portfolio not just with the best price.

Now onto the design. I was new to this, and what little I did know of tattoos I learned from a friend in high school who designed her brothers tattoo. She told me that tattoo shops would not accept printed off pictures so she had to draw his up, and proceeded to trace a picture she found online. So honestly, I didn’t know that tattoo stealing was even a thing. So when I was looking for inspiration for my tattoo, I knew kind of what I wanted and looked on Pinterest for a design I liked and was inspired by. I already knew before I began looking what I wanted. I wanted the word AGAPE (geek word for one of the many definitions of love; commonly referred to as God love because it is the most powerful or intimate love. Usually refer to love for children, spouse etc.) with some type of inclusion of the ichthys (the fish symbol tied to Christianity) and I knew I wanted it in black and white. So what I did was go onto Pinterest and find exactly what I wanted and I redrew it so I could take it in. I didn’t have access to printing so I couldn’t just outright trace it. While I didn’t steal something already tattooed, as it was just a picture (still not an excuse however), and I didn’t just trace the design I still found a design online and used that. There wasn’t a link to who originally drew it or any connection to the artist either so in all honesty I couldn’t have tracked down where it even came from. I have since learned that this is not the best way to go about tattoo designs, in reality I should of taken the original in and asked for them to design something similar or tell them what I would want. I didn’t realize until much later on that this could be potential theft. And while tattoos like mine are classified as tattoos like a heart or infinity symbol and are common and can’t really be changed it’s something that sticks with me.

I went to the Royal Flesh tattoo shop in Chicago, IL. The tattoo shop I went to was incredibly nice though, and while I didn’t have anything to compare it too I was very pleased with the price, the service and how the tattoo turned out. We ended up changing a few more things on the tattoo and making it nicer/cleaner to be tattooed. I was tattooed by an apprentice, he was super nice and did a really decent job especially since I paid 65$ for the tattoo. I did tip pretty well too, though I can’t remember exactly what I gave as a tip.

After care and many years later is a little bit of a different story however. I was young, again I cannot stress this enough. This was my first, against I cannot stress THIS fact enough, and I honestly had no clue. Each shop has slightly different directions but the basics are wash the area gently about 3 times a day with NON scented soap and lotion up to 5 times a day with NON scented lotion. Each shop will tell you what brand they believe works best and each shop has different instructions for how long to leave it bandaged. So this shop told me to leave the bandage on for like 4-6 hours I believe and wash with a bar soap and gave me a brand of lotion they thought was best. I can’t remember exactly the brand but I have since learned aquaphor works pretty well for tattoos. (again I am NO expert so do not hold me to that, that is just what helped my other tattoos heal and they turned out way better than the first one years later).

I have had this tattoo for 4 years, I got it in 2014 in the spring. So at this point it’s been around a while and has had some sun damage and general wear. I picked at it while it healed, which made it patchy. So don’t do that. At some point I need to go get it touched up. It also has blown out some in the lettering, especially where it is thinner. Which is quite common especially in thinner lined tattoos. While I still really love this tattoo a lot, I do regret being so naive about tattoos at the time. And if I had a re-do I would probably ask to see examples of work and pick someone based off of work and not price. I also wasn’t told that thin lines can blow out and fade, so some more research on my part would have been better. There isn’t really a way to know if it’s because of who tattooed my or the price but maybe if I paid a little more and gotten done by someone who had more experience the lettering wouldn’t have blown out. It could also just be the placement (on my hip) or how badly I cared for it.

All in all, I love this tattoo and it means a lot to me. It’s a great reminder and has a deep meaning in my life. Did I do things a little unconventional? Yes. most likely. I should of asked for a custom design from the shop, and while I picked a tattoo known as common and re-drew it myself to the best of my abilities (thank goodness for tattoo shops being able to clean up drawings) it would have been much nicer to tell them what I wanted and get something custom. Had a done this with someones actual tattoo and ripped off a custom design I would feel much worse about myself but I have since learned a little more tattoo etiquette. I encourage anyone looking for tattoos to get their ideas from other tattoos but bring in what you want and get something custom made or have someone custom draw the design for you. It’s not a huge matter with popular tattoos like hearts, stars, infinity signs, deathly hallows etc because that is a flat design that no one can customize really. But for something like a pretty detailed piece that you love, get your own custom design based off the design.

I have also never shared this design before online, ever. Mostly because my parents didn’t know at the time (heck they still don’t know about this particular tattoo) that I had gotten it done so I never shared it. Not many people know I got this done. Also partly because when I began to realize tattoo theft was a thing I was still unsure if mine qualified as such. However, while I could of done things better I don’t think I ripped off anyones actual tattoo and I think about it like this; if someone wants this design then they are welcome to it. My other tattoos though have deeper and more personal meanings and are uniquely designed for me so they better stay mine and only mine. This  tattoos in itself is a very common design and not like a unique piece designed my another artist in shop.

Also, disclaimer, I know that this tattoo healed fairly poorly and that is 100% my fault. I picked at it way too much and made it fade and look patchy. At some point I will get this touched up and fixed so it’s not so faded and patchy looking. The tattoo shop did a wonderful job and the only blame here can be placed on me. Blow outs do happen, especially on something that small with that tiny of lettering. I still love it and honestly it could look much worse considering how much I picked at it. DO NOT PICK TATTOOS! I beg you, just don’t.

All in all I think I learned a lot from this experience, and while I don’t regret getting this particular design I know I could have improved my experience. If you are looking to get your first tattoo definitely do A LOT of research, look at reviews and look up you tubers who have gotten a lot of tattoos like treacle tatts, qcknd and katrin berndt who just have been doing this for a long time and have a lot of stories and tips to share.

If you have a first story feel free to share with me, I would love to know other peoples experiences. If you have any other questions about my first time, feel free to ask me and contact me. Please keep comments kind, I was rather young and naive and didn’t know all of the etiquette that went along with tattoos. I have since learned and changed my tactics and am in no way advocating my behavior either. I just wanted to share my experience and what I have learned. Look for part 2 in the near future.


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The 5 minute Savasana

Savasana is one of those things that everyone knows is super important but no one seems to give it the love and attention that it needs. When I was taking online yoga classes Savasana was like 30 seconds. It didn’t last long at all and I was always left longing for more time. They were online classes so I could extend my Savasana if I wanted, but it still seemed super odd to me that it was so short.

So when I finally began taking studio classes it was super nice that Savasana was at least a few minutes. I had time to cool down, clear my mind and prepare myself for the rest of the day off my mat. Savasana was not to be rushed, it’s probably one of the most important parts of your yoga practice and we really need to take the time to relax in it and take our mind into that mind space.

So when I started teaching, I made a huge effort to save that last 5 minutes of class for Savasana. I call it the 5 minute Savasana. While the class does not actually stay that long in Savasana, they get at least 2-3 minutes to wind down and then the 1-2 minutes to slowly wake back up and come to their seated position. Which most people in my classes take full advantage of. I have learned so many new Savasana tips from my class that I never thought of before.

One good tip I see is using a blanket in Savasana. Covering up and getting full into that relaxation for Savasana. If Savasana only lasts a matter of seconds then you don’t have the time to get that relaxed and into your space.

A longer Savasana offers a better cool down, a clearer mind and ties your practice together. And it’s important to give our muscles, as well as our mind, that time to rest and cool down after a sessions. And depending on the type of yoga you’re doing, it can be your key to a perfect practice.

If you’re doing mild yoga, especially before bed it can really help to bring you into that chill space especially for bedtime. The only time a Savasana isn’t relay used in a yoga practice is when you’re specially doing a short flow to wake up or build energy. Like a 15 minute session. Otherwise Savasana is key to almost every practice.

So next time you find yourself on your mat, try to extend your Savasana a little longer. Bring yourself to that clear minded space, prepare yourself for the rest of the day and really bring a nice close to your practice. A movie or a book just doesn’t end abruptly, there is always some sort of closure (unless you’re watching Infinity Wars apparently) and your yoga practice is the same way. Don’t leave yourself hanging on a cliffhanger. Go the distance and give yourself a wonderful ending.

And Savasana does not have to be traditional either. Find a different way to lay, use blankets, blocks and bolsters and get so comfortable in your Savasana. Play around with it and find whats perfect for you and your body. Really begin to love your Savasana, not just because we have to or it’s a nice rest after hard poses.

So take the time you need, find what works for you and enjoy the best ending you can possibly make for a practice. Self-care has many different faces, and a good Savasana can be one of the best ways to practice self-care.

Lady Bird movie review: *Spoilers*

I’ve been wanting to see his movie for awhile, but I wasn’t willing to pay for a ticket when it was in theaters and while it scored well on rotten tomatoes, I was still not wanting to take a chance on something that didn’t seem to get a whole of press time. Thankfully Amazon added it to their prime video and I finally sat down and watched it. This review will contain spoilers so if you haven’t seen the movie yet you have been warned.


Lady_Bird_posterLady Bird follows Christine “Lady Bird” McPherson in her senior year of high school. Attending Catholic school, Lady Bird (her preferred name) follows the ups and downs of coming of age, senior year and choosing a college. Wanting to go out of state to New York she is constantly battling with her mom about college, trying to fit in, first boyfriends and keeping grades up trying to get into college. 


Lady Bird is a beautiful coming of age story, and it differs greatly from most coming of age stories as well. I loved the realness behind the story and the struggles that Lady Bird went through especially with her mom. I’ll break down the review into parts and/or events that happened in the movie and touch on each a little bit. Then I will do my overall feelings and opinions on it.

Lady Bird and her mother: The movie starts off with a college visit as Lady Bird and her mother listen to an audio book. True to a lot of mother daughter relationships, the audio book ends and they start to bicker. Cue the end of the scene and Lady Bird opens the car door as they are still driving and just falls out breaking her arm. To say I was shocked about this scene was a bit of an understatement. It seemed dramatic and crazy and way over the top but it set up the whole relationship with her mom for the entire movie. They had the type of relationship where they could be honest with each other, but the mom was a little too honest and tried her hardest to get her daughter to be the best that she could be. Lady Bird realized that her mom really did care but a lot of the time she didn’t know how to handle the blatant honesty coming from her mom and retaliated with the same honesty.

College: After initially fighting with her mom about wanting to go out of state and her mom telling her she would never be accepted to those colleges, and that there was no way they could afford them anyways. So Lady Bird says nothing more of the topic and applies to the colleges behind her mothers back. She longs to get away and get a taste of freedom from her town of Sacramento. The movie ends with her getting in to a New York college, things are super shaky with her mom and they leave on a sour note. Her dad sneaks several letters from her mom into her suitcase (with out mom knowing) which I am assuming were all the unspoken feelings of love and affection for her daughter. After some hardships in New York, Lady Bird realizes her love for her mother and for Sacramento. She calls her mom and thanks her for everything saying that she loves her and misses her. Its leaves the audience to wonder if she stayed in New York, if she transferred back home or maybe she took her time in New York to appreciate her home and her life.

Boyfriends: This movie shows how many a first loves goes. Lady Birds first boyfriend turned out to be gay, while breaking her heart Lady Bird realized how much worse the boy was as they attended catholic school and was unable to tell his family. Her second boyfriend conned her into having sex, taking her virginity and then admitting that he wasn’t actually a virgin even though he had said he was. She has to come to terms with her struggles and realize her mistakes and come to terms with a huge jerk of a guy. I even liked how she was able to talk to her mom about it, and her mom didn’t judge. When asked when is the correct time to start having sex her mom just replied “probably college, but make sure to use protection like we talked about.” which I really admired. Even if you want to stress that sex should wait till marriage it’s important to let your kids know all the details and precautions they need to be taking. It was nice to see how first love isn’t how always how it seems it’s going to be, especially as a teenager.

There are many more points I could touch on but these are the main ones. I really enjoyed the movie overall and thought it was well done.

The movie is really slow going, nothing really happens but it touches on a side of life that most movies don’t show. What it’s like to be the poor one in a private school, the struggles of love, fights between friends and even the struggles of the adults as they raise a rather opinionated child. It isn’t an action movie, it’s a story movie.

While there are some scenes that just kind of seem like “what the heck” overall the movie is a great one. Like when she jumped from the car, that was a little crazy and seemed a little extreme. And at the end, when she gets to college and parties it up and gets sent to the hospital for just being drunk on basically her first night. While it was a slap in the face for Lady Bird, it just seemed off and a little rushed. She spent the entire movie trying to get away and on her first night she realizes what she misses. While that is very realistic it just happened so quickly like the first thing she does is get wasted.

Overall though, this was an amazing coming of age movie and really portrayed a teens struggles of colleges and relationships. It was a movie that I feel most people can relate to on some level. It was touching and sad, and really got a person thinking. I love movies that aren’t just entertaining but also are very profound and make a person think.

I would rate this a 4/5 stars, I loved the movie but some of it was just way out there. I would recommend this movie to anyone who loves more realistic movies and not just action and fantasy. It’s a slow movie, but still a very good movie. And I encourage everyone to at least try it. It’s on amazon prime video (included with a prime membership) for anyone looking for it. Otherwise it’s pretty much in every store on DVD and blu ray. Definitely worth a watch.